Finding myself in happiness?

It took me awhile to understand that loneliness is no longer a threat and I can find peace and joy in it. However, like the the Lana's song, I kept asking myself "when's it gonna be my turn" to have a love that loves me for who I am? A family? Have I found it already in small pieces of moments? Have I been forgotten? What is there after we go over the rainbow? Which song will I sing when I finally find what I am looking for?